First, I want to introduce Appa (ah-pa) =D … the newest addition to our little family. He’s a 4-month-old, Aussie – Keeshond mix. He is flippin adorable and fluffy and energetic and dramatic and a little monster. Needless to say… He fits right in. Also, he will be running our lives while we train him. Soooooo, pray for us.
As I type this post, I am perfectly content. But, just a day ago, I was ready to scream my head off. Overwhelmed. Frustrated. Annoyed. Confused. I can’t choose just one emotion to describe my dis-ease. Nor can I pinpoint the exact reason. But, I imagine we all get like this. We all have those days. They come. They go. They linger and manifest into weeks. Some people handle it well. While others, like myself, must consciously extract themselves from the bottomless pit of doubt. It can be a long drawn out process… OR NOT.
Here is my solution: Accept it. Simply surrender to the emotions you are experiencing. Sometimes, “bad” moods are necessary. For whatever reason (if you dig deep enough, I’m sure you can identify it) you are at a low point in your life. It sucks. I get it. I also know that society has taught us to stay positive. To fight back. Don’t show weakness. Work through it. I get that too. It would be a shame for anyone to subject themselves to a life full of self-pity. However, your feelings are completely valid. A little self-pity can be necessary at times.
Make it easy on yourself and simply, meet yourself where you are at. If you are feeling down. Feel down. Seclude yourself and eat ice cream all day if you want. Sleep all day. Cry in a pillow. Give up your routine for a week. Wear the same sweats you’ve been wearing for three days straight. Just do it. Meet yourself where you are at. Don’t try to make yourself feel guilty for not being positive like everyone is telling you to be. Be sad. Submerge yourself into the feelings. Experience it. Love it. Laugh at it; no matter how serious you’re “supposed” to be about the situation.
But here is the important part… Know when to disassociate yourself with it. At some point become the observer. Pretend you are giving your nearest, dearest friend some incredible advice about the situation… And then, TAKE IT!
Know that you have the power to change your circumstances, IF you truly desire.
If you’re fixated on getting and feeling better, trying to force something you aren’t ready for. Stop. This only gets in the way. You’re just setting yourself up with an unnecessary expectation and suppressing the real issue. Meaning, even if this time you get yourself out of that funk by force, you’re not too far away from the next breakdown.
It’s okay to feel sad. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to hate yourself. Meet yourself where you are at. Just remember, this is just another cycle, another phase, and you don’t have to identify with it.
That’s the Buddhist philosophy. #meditateonit